I Hate that you are not here. I am so sorry that Shawn broke your heart. I know you loved him. I hate that he hurt you that way, I think you just didnt care about anything even yourself after he hurt you..I wish I could have made you understand that the money didnt matter,that all that mattered was you going on with your life. I just didnt understand you I guess. I shuld have just taken you and tried to talk to you and let you understand that you needed to come home and that was where you belonged. Why cant we just go back in time..I would go back to when all three of you girls were little. Maybe I would do better the second time around. If I could give up every material object I have I would... just to have my family complete again....Life just isnt fair. I want you to know I always, ALWAYS loved you with all my heart..maybe I loved you too much...I dontknow why...I hate it, I do know that. Love and Kisses until I can see you...MOM