Bri, It is Christmas. I bought you a Christmas ornament again this year. It is to let you know you are constantly thought of. Your Daddy and I are doing the best we can. It is hard. We had three little girls and now there are two. It is not right, it will never be right, it will never be complete. We miss you all the time. I am sorry if I led you to believe you were loved any less or made you feel like you were not as good. I wish I could change things. I am sorry I failed you. I know you are okay, but I am not. I miss you and will daily until I see you again. I know you had a good christmas. wish you were here with us then maybe christmas would be complete. I think of you always. Love Mom Ps. I try not to cry and when I do, I hear your voice saying, "Don't cry Mama, don't cry" and I try not to, but it is very hard. I took some flowers over and will take more this spring. I still can't look at videos or pictures. It makes me miss you to much. I love you.