Brianna, You would be really proud of Sarah, she is doing great in school. Kristen's baby Lexa is getting big and pretty. Desta is pregnant: she is having a girl. Stacy is doing good in school. Daddy is not feeling much better. I think about you all the time, as usual. I havent been over to the accident site since your birthday, it just hurts. I know it is my fault you didn't come home and things didn't work out. God told me...I am so sorry. I wish I could go back and change things. I would. If I could I would take your place, it just hurts so much....I want to see you so much....Please ask God to let you come and see me. If I had to do it again, I would talk to you more and figure out what I could do to help you. I want you to come home !!!!!!! I want us to be a family again. It was my responsibility and I was and am just STUPID. I should have made us go to counseling to get along. Bri I am so sorry. I wanted to give you your freedom because I felt that is what mom's have to do..I didn't want to..I still remember you sitting on my bed asking if you could move in with Desta. I wanted to say no, but you said you had to leave sometime. I remember in the kitchen I asked you where you were going. you said "Home" the apt. I wanted to scream at you that this is home. There is nothing in this world that can hurt anymore than not having you here.I miss you so much. I just wish I hadn't of failed. I know if I hadn't you would still be here and be happy..I am so sorry BRI. I miss you.